Chasing a Dream: Can’t Dream This–Part 2

As I said yesterday in Part 1, along the way in my dream chase, I have found that sometimes things come along that ARE SO MAGICAL that I couldn’t even have DREAMED them. This is about the second of those things that has happened lately.

You’re Never REALLY Ready—You Just Have to Keep Moving

Several months ago when I mustered up the courage to actually initiate my dream chase to the West Coast, each step along the way, I’d say to myself, “I can’t do this, it’s just too hard.” And yet, I kept moving forward. Even as I was packing boxes, I’d say to myself, “This is too hard, I just can’t do it.” Again, I’d keep moving forward, putting one foot in front of the other, moving toward it even when I thought I couldn’t.

Sometimes I Can't Believe It's Happening!

Sometimes I Can’t Believe It’s Happening!

Looking back on it, it’s pretty funny. Even AFTER we’d sold the condo, AFTER we’d gotten the relocation cube packed and on its way here, AFTER we were in the car driving to California—EVEN THEN—I was saying to myself, “I can’t do this, it’s too hard.” I had already left a “secure” job, sold the home where I’d lived for 30 years, whittled down our worldly possessions to what would fit in an 7×8’ cube, and piled into the car headed across the country. But I still felt like it was too hard, I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t be away from my daughter, I couldn’t live 2500 miles away from my siblings, I couldn’t handle being “homeless.” But I was ALREADY doing it! There was no part of me that felt ready, and yet, I was DOING IT because I HAD A LIFE-LONG DREAM TO FULFILL.

Fast Forward to Auditioning

Eventually, of course, I began auditioning here, sometimes in person, sometimes via video. For one of the auditions, I was sent the entire script and requested to do a video. I selected a scene to perform, recorded the video and sent it to the casting director. He was nice enough to acknowledge receipt of the video (most don’t) and stated that they liked it (most of the time, you get NO feedback). That was several weeks ago.

Last week, I got an email that they wanted to cast me, and we emailed back and forth to work out the details of the contract, which details included travel to Louisiana, etc.

I Couldn’t Even Have DREAMED This

Eventually, the CD called me, and we spent a few minutes chatting. During that time, he said that there were several people considered for most of the parts. “But,” he said, “You were the only one we wanted for the role of Kate.”

Read that part again, because you probably missed it. “YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE WE WANTED FOR THE ROLE OF KATE.” ME. Others had submitted. Probably others who would have been local, because the role was NOT one for which they had planned to pay travel expenses. But I was THE ONE—the ONLY one—they wanted for that role. Friends, I couldn’t even have DREAMED of having a Casting Director say that to me. It’s one of those magical things that makes me know… I’m where I belong!

Thanks for being here!




  1. I am so very happy for you. You are doing great things and I know more great things are coming your way! Love you to the moon and back.

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